Just not feeling into it today, for some reason. Well, no, not ‘for some reason.’ I know the reason. Writing troubles. Sigh. You know, I remember when I was in the 5th grade or something, and our teacher had a poster on the wall with a picture of Einstein and a quote from him that said, ‘Do not worry about your difficulties in mathematics; I assure you that mine are greater.’
And at the time, I thought that was just routine inspiration, since Einstein (famously) wasn’t that strong as a mathematician. It was saying, “Oh, I’m a genius and math even stumps me sometimes, so you guys shouldn’t feel bad. Just keep on trying.”
But now I realize that what it was really saying is that as you get better at something, you struggle with it more. You see more ways to go wrong. And you take on more ambitious tasks. And your troubles literally become greater. You write yourself into places you never would’ve written yourself into before. And you throw up your hands and refuse to write sentences and scenes that once would’ve pleased you immensely. And it kind of sucks.